http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/ torn-thinks Sun, 01 Jul 2007 21:05:09 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. Illnesses Fashion Humor http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/25.html Sun, 01 Jul 2007 10:03:14 GMT i loved you with all of me. i gave you my loyalty, my whole heart, my soul, my time, my youth, my innermost thoughts...gave you access to places in my mind nobody has ever reached... i lied for you, countless times, so that people won't think any less of you, even though i was hurting like hell. i traded my ideals , my principles, things i stood up for, to be with you i fought for you, tooth and nail, and with so much tears...i fought for you like crazy...stood up against everybody...stood up against the family who loved me, against my friends who knew better...i fought till the... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=25 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/24.html Sat, 30 Jun 2007 21:25:29 GMT i would like to think that i am not...but it is slowly creeping up on me... and i am beginning to realize that yes, it might have caught up with me already and that i am truly, truly jaded...well, aside from the emptiness that i endlessly feel nowadays, that is. i guess we come to a point in our lives when we feel that we've given everything we ever had and there's nothing left there. and even a feeble attempt at redemption doesn't seem to work. and it's sad this way...because we are young...because we have a very bright future ahead of us, and because we are basically good... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=24 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/23.html Sun, 24 Jun 2007 18:28:02 GMT empty...as the can of a wizened old beggar who sits by the way side, every single day...waiting, waiting for that morsel of compassion that comes in the form of a few, crooked, old coins.. empty, as the words of a chronic habitual liar who can never figure out which is real and which is not empty, as the shore side in an out of way place somewhere in the provinces where people have lost their penchant for sea going because the sea has been with them all their lives empty, as the inkwell that sits by the table of a disillusioned poet, who has given up on everything for lack of... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=23 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/22.html Wed, 09 May 2007 08:34:38 GMT " I gave my heart out a long time ago, and I never really got it back." - Reese Witherspoon as Melanie in Sweet Home Alabama. I guess it happens when you have loved someone for so long. Our break up was amicable, and falling out of love was not the reason for it. And in quiet moments, moments like these when I get to do a lot of pondering, that's when it hits me. http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=22 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/21.html Wed, 21 Feb 2007 16:17:50 GMT nobody would ever know, just us charlie. about what went on and how we felt, and how crazy it was, or how good it was, or how surreal, and how happy we were, and plain just how unbelievable it was. Something to tell the grand kids about, as you always said Charlie. What's next for us? do we have september? or october of november or maybe even december? or 2008 is it? or probably just new york, as we've always talked about, 2010 or 2011 or even 2012? nobody would ever know how i felt Charlie, just me, no matter how I tried to tell the few who cared to listen, or the few i dared tell... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=21 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/20.html Sat, 17 Feb 2007 14:46:21 GMT DRIVEN. That's what sets me apart. I might be really hurting and confused, and feeling really stupid about the decisions i've recently made in my life, but I never lose focus. I might be really bleeding inside, and feeling like hell, but I never throw my self worth away. I might get sidetracked but my dreams are always within reach, just waiting for me to grab it and never let it ever go. I might be feeling sorry for some of the things I did, but i never succumb to self-pity or dwell in the past. Every bit of experience, be it good or bad, ugly or beautiful was all well worth... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=20 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/18.html Thu, 18 Jan 2007 19:40:32 GMT a toast, to better things. to happiness, and good health. to a life of comfort and grace. to real, albeit few, friendships. to opportunities that will knock like crazy. to success, and even a feel of love. maybe not love itself, but something almost akin to it. to new acquaintances and renewal of old ones. to diplomacy and regal bearing. to simplicity in the midst of splendor and all my grandiose illusions about life. to truthfulness to myself and those around me. to perseverance and kindness. to understanding, and patience, and bearing it all, reasonably. a toast to a freer view... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=18 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/17.html Thu, 18 Jan 2007 12:36:53 GMT let me tell you of a world where everything is unreal, just surreal, and nothing is true, perhaps only a few where dreams abound, and promises are broken and fidelity is lost, most of the time let me tell you of beautiful moments, only moments, that are fleeting and gone just like that, but stays with you, for a long time where time is too slow yet sometimes too quick, where you want it to end quickly, yet never really want it to be over where things are serious and funny at the same time where you are filled with longing, never really belonging wishing everyday for a glimpse, a... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=17 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/16.html Sun, 07 Jan 2007 00:17:29 GMT a kind word. it can make someone's day less oppressive. a kind word can make someone in pain smile, even for a fleeting moment. a kind word is like a carress to a battered old soul. a kind word is a a welcome change from things that are ugly. a kind word can banish sadness, in its own little way. a kind word fosters friendship, inspires love and is the foundation of respect. when you mean the kind words you say to someone, then it makes it all worthwhile. we have far too much lies in this world, too much sadness and strife to keep us all busy for a millenium or two that a kind word is... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=16 http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/archive/15.html Fri, 22 Dec 2006 03:52:01 GMT i wondered why i didn't feel too cold today. i was wearing this halter top and everybody else were wearing light sweaters. any how, weather-musing aside, today commemorates the 5 years and 11 months Ben and I have been together. Funny thing happened last night. I was watching a rerun of Sex and the City and out of the blue, I realized how Aidan-like Ben is. I mean, I'm really not a big fan of Mr. Big. I just loved how sweet Aidan really was to Carrie. How he was the best boyfriend, and how he really, really adored her. That's exactly how I feel when I am with Ben. I mean, he takes... (more) http://torn-thinks.blogdrive.com/comments?id=15